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Post by silentwords621 on Aug 2, 2007 16:03:07 GMT -5
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Post by americanmom on Aug 2, 2007 16:36:54 GMT -5
Interesting...
Actually, I can identify to a certain extent. It seems that in protecting yourself, trying to be strong, etc, you end up being at least a little cold and unfeeling. Sometimes it's easier that way.
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Post by silentwords621 on Aug 2, 2007 16:47:29 GMT -5
I feel like a half-and-half, too.
I was always the nerdy little girl who got picked on and who ran home crying everyday after school. The older I got, the colder I got, putting my heart on my sleeve less and giving cold stares more. I also had to develop a quick-tongue...say something before they hurt me.
I honestly cannot remember the last time I've cried (it's a rare occurrence now), and my family considers me "cold and rude." However, I can honestly say that I still have some sense of empathy and compassion.
It's just that the crap I've dealt with...and still deal with (men on the streets harassing me, and the air of importance that tends to float around in certain places in the District) has hardened me to a lot.
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Post by americanmom on Aug 2, 2007 17:00:46 GMT -5
I hear ya. I've had a few relationships in which I gave every bit of myself to try to make someone else happy, and I ended up with nothing. I learned as a young woman that I was the only one who was going to take care of me.
I wouldn't say I'm rude... I'm still pretty quiet, and I keep a lot inside, but I'm still called stubborn, independent (like it's a bad thing), and Ice Queen. But at the same time, I'm trying hard to be a good wife and mother, which I still think are two of the most important roles in my life.
At least when you're numb, you don't get hurt as much... although you can miss out on a lot of the joy that life has to offer. It's a difficult balance for me.
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